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Oh God oh God:
what's wrong with me?
Some days I feel
like such a problem.
My faith it seems
like a wilted leaf,
stepped on by many,
without the strength to stand;
trembling, ugly, weak.
Why do you water
this weak salad patch
when there are roses
more glad for all the care -
more grateful, more beautiful,
more deserving than me?
I feel your love,
and yet I feel
so rotten, undeserving still.
Why is this? What's wrong with me?
But maybe
what I need to do
is shut up, and just look to you,
my gardener who cares for me,
the light that will not let me go,
the water raining down on me,
though I'm not worth such love as this.
Instead of worrying about my worms,
to simply be still,
and know you are God;
to let go, drop all,
say yes to your call,
to accept your grace,
undeserved as it is,
once and for all.
what's wrong with me?
Some days I feel
like such a problem.
My faith it seems
like a wilted leaf,
stepped on by many,
without the strength to stand;
trembling, ugly, weak.
Why do you water
this weak salad patch
when there are roses
more glad for all the care -
more grateful, more beautiful,
more deserving than me?
I feel your love,
and yet I feel
so rotten, undeserving still.
Why is this? What's wrong with me?
But maybe
what I need to do
is shut up, and just look to you,
my gardener who cares for me,
the light that will not let me go,
the water raining down on me,
though I'm not worth such love as this.
Instead of worrying about my worms,
to simply be still,
and know you are God;
to let go, drop all,
say yes to your call,
to accept your grace,
undeserved as it is,
once and for all.
Literature
Do You Know who I am
Do you know who I am?
I'm the whisper in the dark,
I'm the longing in your heart,
I'm the voice inside the whirl of wind,
I am.
Do you know who I am?
I'm the God of Isaac,
The God of Abram,
I'm the light within in the valley Of the shadows
Of death.
Do you know who I am?
I'm the promises at hand,
The word that always true
I'm the voice inside the reason of this maddening
Decay.
Do you know who I am?
I'm the one who wrote in destiny,
Who called you out by name,
I'm the one who loves to hear you sing praises to
My name.
Do you know who I am?
I'm the smith who breaks the chains of fate
That shackled you to the world's emb
Literature
Here
Here, in this place,
I laugh in death's face.
Here, in this world,
It is not hurled,
Into being,
It's clear and freeing.
Here, in my head,
I remember all things said.
Here, by this path,
There is no wrath,
Only trials well borne,
Strewn with thorns.
Here I might stumble,
I might trip and crumble.
But here, here is a hand,
In an expanse of sea, land.
Picked me up, put me together,
Turned stones to feathers.
Here I am held,
Never fully felled.
Here I have crutches,
So nothing black touches.
The worst is fit to the best,
To pass the hardest test.
Here
Here
Literature
Who I am
I am the Lord's creation
I am His servant
I am His friend
I am His child
I am His beloved
I was created for His purposes
I was created for His glory
I love Him and He loves me
I am His and He is mine
I am the Lord's creation
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Sort of comes from a few thoughts about conversion that I had a while ago. But I started writing and suddenly the salad came in. = = lol~ (even if I try planning my stuff, it doesn't work - something else results!)
I did some Sunday School work for the first time ever this last Sunday, and it went really well. Things like that - opportunities for ministry opening, and everything going well even though I'm not really suited for the job (I am not good with handling children - playing with them is okay, but as soon as someone fights or cries or wets himself I'm totally lost) - things like that I see as signs of God's grace in my life. But then I sometimes feel so difficult, with doubts, praying too little, taking over too much junk from liberal theology, overactive imagination, etc.
So anyway I noticed that difference, between my "being a problem" and God showing me grace. I thought of what I've learnt about some people's beliefs about the importance of a conversion experience, e.g. Francke [link] or Wesley [link] - there are times where I really wished I'd be able to know a particular moment at which I was "saved". I don't even remember my baptism! Anyway then I realised maybe conversion is much simpler; maybe it's just being still and trusting God and accepting the grace He's already giving, rather than running around and being frustrated about my limits and how unsuited I am. God doesn't really care how unsuited we are - if He did, it wouldn't be grace.
It's like when Jesus called His disciples: it's not so much knowing, as just accepting God's call, God's grace. Or with the 10 Lepers: Jesus healed them all! One went back and accepted that grace. God's grace is universal but then conversion is when we accept that God has shown us grace and that God has shown us grace.
*Long theological rambling over*
(I love theology, don't you? hahaha)
I did some Sunday School work for the first time ever this last Sunday, and it went really well. Things like that - opportunities for ministry opening, and everything going well even though I'm not really suited for the job (I am not good with handling children - playing with them is okay, but as soon as someone fights or cries or wets himself I'm totally lost) - things like that I see as signs of God's grace in my life. But then I sometimes feel so difficult, with doubts, praying too little, taking over too much junk from liberal theology, overactive imagination, etc.
So anyway I noticed that difference, between my "being a problem" and God showing me grace. I thought of what I've learnt about some people's beliefs about the importance of a conversion experience, e.g. Francke [link] or Wesley [link] - there are times where I really wished I'd be able to know a particular moment at which I was "saved". I don't even remember my baptism! Anyway then I realised maybe conversion is much simpler; maybe it's just being still and trusting God and accepting the grace He's already giving, rather than running around and being frustrated about my limits and how unsuited I am. God doesn't really care how unsuited we are - if He did, it wouldn't be grace.
It's like when Jesus called His disciples: it's not so much knowing, as just accepting God's call, God's grace. Or with the 10 Lepers: Jesus healed them all! One went back and accepted that grace. God's grace is universal but then conversion is when we accept that God has shown us grace and that God has shown us grace.
*Long theological rambling over*
(I love theology, don't you? hahaha)
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amen sister! so raw and so honest I love it.